posted Saturday, September 20, 2014 at 10:59am
I have nice things, a great career, awesome attitude and overall a good human. I wear nice suits, beautiful place and view, drive nice cars... I have almost everything
I wanted as a kid. I don't come from a loving upbringing or a supportive family. I grew up in a poor family and getting my head bashed in by verbal and physical abuse was a daily occurrence. I'm 30 years old yet I'm so afraid to share everything I've ever been through, because my past isn't as attractive as my present. And I'm still missing what I wanted as a kid, someone who really loves me. I have a mental wall allowing me to find that for myself. It's not that I can't, I just don't know how. And because of that I'm a womanizer. I've realized that my inability to actually love someone is very wrong. In the end I'm the one really suffering. This confession wasn't meant to be liked, it's meant to be honest and vulnerable, something I haven't mastered in a relationship. I wanted to start somewhere... I'm starting here GS. We all have problems, don't worry you're not the only one.