posted Saturday, October 25, 2014 at 4:08am
If I told them that I have never had a boyfriend before and I am in my late 20s. They all assume I am too picky and I have let them think that because the truth is not something I think they can understand. The truth is that I can't be in a physical relationship with anyone I don't have a deep connection with and essentially be in love with. When I say love I really mean it. It is not infatuation, superficial, or some cheap imitation off the shelf. Another way to put it is that for me to be physical with someone is like allowing them to touch my soul. Yes, super cheesy but it is the best I can describe it. I can't detatch my mind and body from each other like it seems everyone else can. The type of connection I need to make takes time which seems unfair to ask of someone. I guess I have been hoping to just be lucky enough to stumble across someone instead. I am starting to accept the probabilty that Loneliness will be my companion in life. No pity or feeling sad for me! There are much worst fates out there. Besides, it hasn't been as bad as the world seems to portray it. I will end it here because my thoughts are convoluted as it is. Thanks for reading my confession and thoughts. Enjoy your day!