posted Wednesday, September 17, 2014 at 8:53pm
I became a single parent when my ex took to the bottle heavily. He'd had issues previously, but they were exacerbated when I came near to death during a very dramatic birth. We tried and tried, but his own previous hurts came up and he kept at the bottle. He turned into a different man; a scathing, vicious jerk. I asked him to leave when my child was 1. I have a lovely child now, almost 4. She is astounding and healthy and I am deeply grateful. My ex's behaviour is spiraling right out of control. He does not pay child support, or if he does it's @ $15/month. I am healing from this situation and from his ongoing verbal abuse, so may need more time before I date again. I guess I wonder if I might be loved right in time? I support myself and my child totally and don't need any money. I have a loving heart and I think I'm pretty in a very natural way, not stunning but not horrid. Am I still of value? I sure feel invisible sometimes. Or maybe I cannot see right because I am sad.