Go to see psychiartist.

Sometimes our emotions get the best of us. Its as simple as going to your doctor, or any doctor (walkin clinic) and talking about it, and getting some medication for your depression. Vancouver weather doesnt help.

You should get some help. In the past, I have had this kind of deep sadness that you described...I don't know if it was despression and I understand your irritation about stereotypes. Anyway, you need to express openly your discomfort...I know that's hard but you shouldn't be ashamed! It's not a power test, you haven't to demonstrate that you are perfect...actually, you are human and you have heart&soul...you are in pain and you need to be honest with your loved one, as you are with yourself. Sincerity is not weakness, it is the expression of the truth. Truth is sometimes ugly and nasty...but you can't get better without genuineness, believe me.

I hate this feeling. But I will never medicate, I will make positive changes in my life and excercise and eat healthy . I KNOW this will help.
It's just the changes I'm worried about...

After recently hitting a low I discovered the Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast. A comedian talking to people about all sorts of issues. It helped me because I related to some of it and didn't feel so alone anymore.

the depression was an issue for me in the past. I know i and my brothers inheirited it from my father. With myself , it WAS a problem, but i solved it a good 7 years ago. For me it was all about negative thinking. Partly it was the family atmosphere growing up, the father being not so much a father, but rather just a provider (food,shelter,clothes)..and then later on in my adult years, it was the anxiety and further negative thinking (dwelling on the past too much, not being ''present'', not being grateful for all the goodness i experienced...long list.)Psychiartist...for myself it was a waste of money. Seen about 4 over the course of 10 years. None did nothing at all...just chatted about my past, offered no advice on how to get out of depression, just prescribed pills ans gleefully told me to come back next week for more sessions. In other words, here in B.C. , THESE mental health docs are mostly just showing up in an office for a govt paycheque. A pshychologist (if you can afford one out of your own pocket) is a much better route. They will ask you to do cognitive therapy, they talk back to you and discuss your issues, they give you ''homework'' that they will discuss with you on your next session. They cannot prescribe, but no big deal..your family doc can easily prescribe any meds. With some people, it truly has not too much to do with negative thinking, but it really is a chemical brain imbalance..the brain does not produce enuff seratonin or a the correct balanced amount. Those people do need a prescribed anti-depressant. Sadly tho, these anti depressants take a bit of time to kick in, can cause other mental health issues(and lowered libido)and these meds tend to work for a year or two..maybe longer..then they can start to be ineefective. So it can be a repetitive back and forth to your doctors for a prescription upgrade. I would look at first ''purifying'' your mind, your brain. Look at your thought process. Also look at what you eat, drink, smoke and who you associate with. Then start eliminating the negative people,foods, drinks etc from your life. Read books like this: http://www.livestrong.com/article/278726-books-about-diet-for-treating-d... of luck.

You'll probably be better come spring when the sun comes out again. Every year around this time, my sun lamp becomes less about making sure I'm happy, and more about making sure I don't jump off a bridge. I think the lack of sun affects more people than we realize. In the meantime, get a sun lamp from London Drugs, try to exercise, eat well, and watch funny movies.