Boy meets girl. or girl meets boy.where ever.music fest or online. I've been through it all. First month or two are amazing and then I suddenly hit this wall. Your ex who? Your ex what? The ex that you keep bringing up. May be I have a wild imagination that doesn't help me with the vivid sexual images or just the painful feeling that you will leave me for any other woman. This horrible ugly insecurity suffocates me. Tortures me til I literally can't take it anymore. I leave you. I decide its better this way. You've done nothing wrong. You deserve better. And I'm better off alone. And then I get lonely...and the cycle continues...only this time its different cause I realize if I really wanted to be with you I wouldn't find a reason to be jealous. I would trust you and take the risk that is love.