Cool Blue

posted January 26th, 2014 at 6:20 PM

I am still in love with my guy from 1990. I hear he's not too happy with his current (cold-yikes!) lady and that it's loveless. Hearing that made me so sad for him because he is truly fine. I won't be busting in as that's deeply tacky. But he's talented as Hell, funny, hot and super smart. I hope for him he finds his way to proper love because he's a real lovey pie and deserves the best. And that he has the self-esteem to steer the boat the right way. Maybe this New Moon on Thur will bring it to him. (I know, cheesy) There. I've said it. I'm going elsewhere to let the blush in my cheeks subside.

3 Comments

Yes

Jan 27, 2014 at 7:18am

Looks like I'm not the only one in with these kinds of feelings. I'm the married one with the cold disinterested self centered partner and a many strong feelings from someone I met as long ago as the OP met their person. I'm still friends with this other person, good friends. I keep my little secret locked away as I can't hurt my friend like that and I can't hurt my partner. Frustrating but long ago I learnt to make it work

Oh Dear

Jan 27, 2014 at 5:38pm

I am deeply sorry that you're dealing with this. I cannot imagine how that must be. Painful as Hell.

I will always love Cool Blue. I know what always means now: every day even through other relationships I tried with other men, no one compares to him.

When I think about him, I know I can deal with anything life throws at me. I laugh out loud about the things we used to share when I feel bummed out. I feel inspired and I want to sing and dance actually-just thinking of the guy and his mad skills. There is a loyalty and a very deep feeling there that cannot be bent. I believe that is love.

I also think I told the fellow that there would always be he and I. I was very young in 1990. I knew he was really something magical. I didn't know what love was then, though.

You need to have a real 'partner' in life. It might be time to talk about this.

How did you end up with such a cold partner anyway? Who needs it?

Who we marry dictates how life and happiness go. I never married becuase I knew in my heart it was always Cool Blue. The day be got married, I cried so hard, I blew a blood vessel in my left eye.

There are no 'have to's' in real happiness.

You only love once, you know.

Sending you a lot of love and strength to work this out...instead of making it work.