Slippery Slope

I can now understand how drug addiction starts.. I've been using cocaine recreationally for years, but really stepped it up this past year. I started buying it myself instead of chipping in with other, and had a drug dealer in my contact list. I often shared it with friends when I was going out, but then began to do it myself when there were no friends around who did cocaine. I would sneak away to the bathroom all night to do little bumps by myself, and didn't tell anyone. I used it a couple of times before a night out, just to "wake up a bit". I realized after a whole night of using it myself, and spending money on it that I needed for groceries, that it was a problem. I flushed it down the toilet and have no plans to use it ever again. I think I needed to write this out and see it all in front of me, now I realize it REALLY was becoming a problem.

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Good decision.

Apr 16, 2014 at 10:15am

Keep your eye on it though, cause that particular drug has a mind of its own and can reappear even years later to trick you into use. It helps to have a person to contact to talk you down if you are ever tempted again.
All the best to you.

coke is...

Apr 16, 2014 at 2:26pm

...rampant here! I've never before seen such a casual attitude toward such a dangerous substance from people from every walk of life. I know people who spend over $1000 per month and they don't think they do that much. Crazy

I have lost

Apr 16, 2014 at 3:40pm

my husband to coke. After he fathered my child. Gone. No support. Is an asshole all the time. I am scared of the stuff and don't use it. Your choice was wise; it causes permanent, irreparable damage. Indeed, you may need to get help as it affects the mind forever. I had to leave Vancouver as the 'problem' was bothering me. I don't use but am sick of seeing it everywhere-and what it has done to good people. Film Industry? who knows how it has begun to run my hometown, but you are wise to breathe to air and give it a rest. Brave post. Wishing you WELL!!!

Just in case...

Apr 16, 2014 at 3:44pm

It's great that you are self-aware enough to recognize that it's becoming a problem. It might be worthwhile to start seeing an addictions counselor now before it gets worse. Talking to a professional now may prevent it from becoming a full blown addiction in the future. It's better to be safe now than sorry later.

Legalize Cocaine

Apr 16, 2014 at 3:44pm

If Cocaine were legal, we would see what sort of stimulant-addicted ninnies now inhabit Vancouver.

Good on you

Apr 16, 2014 at 5:37pm

For waking up before you lose everything to it. Hopefully you can keep away from it. It's too easy to fall into the trap, and unless you escape early enough, it can really take over your whole life. Best of luck.

huh

Apr 16, 2014 at 5:44pm

i assumed everyone in van was just an asshole, but maybe you're all coke addicts?

@huh

Apr 16, 2014 at 8:00pm

It is way more common than you would think. Coke makes people not care about deriving pleasure from social relationships, except with other cokeheads. I've known a number of people whose social skills took a tumble once they got involved with cocaine. The most fun part is mentioning coke and watching their ears perk up as they ask "do you have any?"

Cocaine fundamentally alters the subject's approach to pleasure: rather than caring about a pleasurable environment (good urban design, a decent welfare rate, etc.) they "grow up" and realize that pleasure is merely chemical, so why not get it straight from a powder rather than from all sorts of complicated "care", "effort", etc. etc.

I'm an Alcoholic

Apr 16, 2014 at 11:36pm

I think you're name describes the advice you're receiving quite well. Its great that you're in a strong place right now, but it could still be the precipice of a slippery slope. You've slid to a dark place in life and rebounded. You may reach a period of success and freedom and find the recreational desires return feeling you're stronger to resist a new addiction. Just don't underestimate it. I read @huh's advice above and find that characterization incredibly enlightening, frightening and consistent with my experience. I wish you all the luck and love in the world to overcome it.

@op

Apr 18, 2014 at 12:35am

be proud of yourself for taking a stand and recognizing your problem.

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