I never thought I'd find myself rather hurt by the fact that a beautiful soul I've just reconnected with over the past several months is heavily contemplating taking herself to some random country and return to her life of traveling/teaching after she's done with what she's doing here sometime towards the end of this month. We'd not spoken to each other for a very long time before we re-connected and our re-connection has been intense in a wonderful, "hey old friend"-mixed-with-"a little more than that" sense. I love the girl, I honestly do; she is well aware of it too. While I firmly support her pursuing her dreams or chasing the wind, I just don't want to say goodbye yet again and wait for many more years for to see her yet again. Her will is as stubborn as mine though. Damn this little rain cloud over my head sucks. I'll miss her very very much, God damn I know that much. :( I'm a guy.