Anxiety Bites

I envy those who don't experience anxiety. It's like this engine that overrides your rational thinking. The majority of the time I am able to just internalize it because I am aware that it is taking over but I cannot bear myself when it hinders my ability to deal with situations. It really sucks when I fixate on minor problems that I know I have the ability to deal with and have the answers to. It is like a little battle that goes on inside my mind and the struggle is exhausting at times. I come upon a dilemma and I begin this mission to fix it and get things back to normal. It's when the problem gets solved that I replay how my mind traveled and I either laugh at myself for being so ridiculous or I feel ashamed of myself. I wish I had more people in my life that could positively influence this trait of mine but I know that I would just drive them bonkers if I actually expressed my thoughts out loud so I just deal with it on the inside. It's my problem in the end and it is embarrassing because most of the time I am so easy going. This problem of mine stands out like a sore thumb to me. See? I have anxiety about my anxiety!!!!

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Oct 19, 2014 at 8:44pm

they could talk you through it.... If you found a good, supportive friend who could do that.

I have a friend who relieves his anxiety & stress & insomnia & depression through consuming cannabis.

I just have the thought of "everything's going to be alright".
sure there are shitty times in life, but (either by effort, luck or a little of column a and a little of column b) eventually things get back to normal.... and sometimes they even get better.

It sounds like you'll improve your situation eventually.... You're aware to start with.

Find a friend you feel safe to express your thoughts to and who's willing to help you through it.

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I'm there with you

Oct 20, 2014 at 1:22pm

I think about the stupidest things that seem so important even though I know their not. You worded that post perfectly and I relate.

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