I am young but have experienced more bucket kicking within my immediate family and circle of family friends than I can shake a fist at to the point that I check the obituaries as faithfully as I check my horoscope. That said, I have learned one very important thing. Always listen to and actually follow through with what people on their death beds are saying to you! Life is a lottery, that is one more thing I'm sure of. You simply don't know when you're number's up and there is thus no sense in spending your time here on this Earth miserable or longing to do things you think you can't do. Believe it or not, it's okay to be a bit selfish even if it means giving up (almost) everything you have to go live your dreams or at least stop and smell the flowers a bit more than once in a blue moon. I myself decided to take my Mum's advice to me with me, and god damn it I am not going to leave this life with any regrets or wallowing about people or things who've/that've been more of a pain than they're worth. I am staying true to my out-of-the-box self. I am no longer hating anybody but rather learning from them and moving forward. And, even with what meager income I currently make, I now view all any money, even a penny, as a blessing rather than a curse and I am still traveling the world like a kite in the wind. Be happy. Listen to your favourite music. Wear your favourite bold colours. Tell a few people off and welcome a few others in. Never stop learning or loving. Never cease connecting. Eat what you shouldn't and find at least one positive or hilarious thing in your day-to-day life. The rest... well, don't say I didn't warn you about not living before dying!