Sex is a meaningless act that sometimes leads to reproduction. That is the evolutionary biologist's description.

It has no intrinsic meaning, only what you make it. Human relationships and sex are two separate things often taken together. Frequently, confusion and suffering result.

Most of my relationships are platonic. Sex is not considered, though it may be in the future for some of them. I try not to let expectations ruin it.

Relating to people strictly through sex is possible, but that communication channel is pretty limited. No matter how much you bang, sleep, and do other necessary things, at some point it's nice to actually relate to the other person(s) as to a human, rather than a biocompatible interactive appliance.

All the meaningless sex is not helping your self hatred. It's perpetuating it. Just stop. Get to know people, get to know yourself. You'll feel a connection when you have something mental and/or emotional to connect over.
But stop allowing yourself to be used like this because you're only going to feel worse.

I've been there. You just haven't slept with enough yet. Keep moving forward!

I too have used sex in the hopes of feeling something. It didn't work for me at the time and I ended up HIV+.

For what it's worth, I'm concerned about you and your safety. Are navigating trauma? Have you experienced violence? Do you need help?

If you do want help and you're a woman call WAVAW's 24-hr crisis line: 604-255-6344 OR the Vancouver Women's Health Collective: 604-736-5262

If you're a man call HIM (Health Initiative for Men): 604-488-1001

All the best to you. I hope my intuition is wrong with this confession.

travel, far.

the emptiness you feel is a diagnostic symptom of borderline personality disorder. Seek professional help. There are some meds that help with that.
You are self-medicating with sex and that's dangerous, unhealthy, doesn't work and further entrenches your self hatred.