Words cannot express how happy I am about being a dad-to-be! It took me a long time to trust myself and in my wife that I can do this. I don't want to cause the disappoint, hurt and neglect I used to feel. I've never believed in being a dad because I'm capable of being a sperm donor. I had a sperm donor dad and he was never anywhere to be found. Some say and think that the past is in the past, but I don't think that's entirely true. Sometimes the past finds a way to repeat as a cycle. I can say with confidence I will not let that happen. I will not be the sperm donor "dad" I had. Kid, I can't wait to love you and you're not even here but you already bring tears to my eyes.