This year has been a bit of a depressing one.. My family disowned me in March and since then every holiday has been a reminder that I'm alone. This weekend has been me cat sitting for a roommate. All 4 of them have gone out of town to spend the long weekend with family and I'm kind of just sitting in my room petting a cat. I know I could try to stop being such a downer... I have tried in fact. I ordered Chinese food and watched 1984386542 comedies to get my mind off of it but there's still a small hole in my heart. Not looking forward to Christmas. I wish there was a way to start letting this go because I know they're not ready to forgive me although I've tried to reach out to them. I am going to have to learn how to be alone as it's going to be a long, long time that I will have to deal with this... years in fact. This just happens to be the first one :(