and tired of it. It used to be something I looked forward to in past years and something I have been 'allowed' to enjoy even in the worst of abusive relationships - even my alcoholic dad would 'let' us have one day free of screaming and slaps and it was Christmas. My sisters and their husbands exchange gifts, in past years my gifts have been screamed at, slap or something of value taken away and I don't think I can 'take' this this Christmas and I am truly dreading it.