Over and Two Worlds Apart

posted December 4th, 2015 at 10:27 AM

I feel down. This past year has been one transition after another with a very heavy emotional tax to ice the cake. The hardest of all is that I lost my best friend, who I'm literally a continent and time zone gap apart from, over the internet. Our last words to each other were nasty and a bitter war of words in an e-mail over very divided logic. This past week I removed her from my Google+ friend circle because I felt like we'd never speak to each other again. We haven't been on Facebook or Skype ince the summer when things started to go cold, there's no other real practical means of communication. I have her e-mail but I don't think we're going to be able to patch the hurt up. Today, I saw she removed me too. Ya know, I don't think this hurt would exist without underlying love, intense love at that too. We're going down two very different roads in our lives that at first felt like they'd meet, but they've split. I'm sorry.

2 Comments

It happens

Dec 4, 2015 at 11:01am

As people age and lives take different shapes certain relationships become less important and have less value to the individuals involved. I basically lost my friend whom I've known since the 3rd grade because when I had a mental breakdown they were already past that part of their life (I was there for them during their mental issues) and they were unable to be receptive to my needs because I had too much negativity & darkness in my situation and they were in a place of "positivity only" - so literally I just was not something they needed anymore, and it caused issues and we had a few text/online messages about it over the course of a few years, but in the end we're just leading very different lifestyles now and we can be happy for each other from afar but we don't have the same vibes and so we don't hang out anymore really - and it's ok because it's just life and it's not personal its just people don't have time for everyone and other priorities take your place sometimes and you have to be ok with that.

well

Dec 4, 2015 at 2:19pm

I get it OP. For whatever reason (probably you left for opportunities) she and you aren't on the same wavelength. She probably cares for you too, but your priorities aren't matching, and there is some resentment. Same story here: I miss someone, and I think she misses me. But she always had our relationship defined, and even wavering it wasn't what i could handle. too painful.