There is something wrong with that. If you feel you are damaged now? You will feel far more damaged being a sugar baby..your soul dies sweetheart, your self esteem plummets even more..I know how you feel in thinking love doesn't exist for you but seriously what in life matters more? Yes, career and other things can bring fulfillment in life but please don't close the door to love. Find ways to build your self esteem, change your thoughts! You are worth so much more than being in an arrangement that is devoid of real intimacy

So what's changed?

Same old same old

Ho Ho Ho and I'm not Santa clause

That's what it's called hon. "Sugar baby " does sound much cuter though I agree, but let's be clear; you would be a prostitute, and that means you'd be no different than anyone else who sells their bodies for cash, no matter where they ply their trade. As long as you're truly comfortable with that, then carry on, but just don't lie to yourself about what it is.

i fully endorse @Pandora. Yes, wisdom says treat your body well and it will treat you as such. Yes, men can be damaging to women. Yes, life can be cruel. Remember, there are government loans and programs that can help achieve financial and emotional help. I find it heartbreaking that you went thru this kind of damaging pain. You are loved profoundly more than you will ever comprehend. We are being watched by higher 'beings': when we need help, we can call upon them as we wish to help us thru any rough lessons in life. I understand, yet never give up on treating your body and your mind and heart well. There is only one of you in the cosmos, remember? As such, let the 'users' be, they will learn in turn their own lessons in their own ways, believe me. Lessons learned on earth are priceless yet painful, i should know as an adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse. You are not alone. I treat myself well, and although the guilt and shame and emotional pain of isolation and lack of physical intimacy can be saddening ( i cry and pray to God; thruout my life), i am doing ok in general, even with anxiety disorder and fear attacks every once in a while. It can be difficult on some days, i understand. You are more than enough and worth receiving and being with a good, kind and loving and caring man. i guarantee this is the truth. It is the innocent and kind and vulnerable who get abused. The answer: using your wisdom, loving every part of your body and your heart and soul and mind and being, taking care of yourself in every way possible. Others who abuse have been abused and propagate the cycle because of their weakness. It is noone's fault. Being kind takes courage and vulnerability but pays off if we are aware of the people around us and their intentions. By being loving to yourself and sending out a vibe of happy self-other-love, i guarantee people of good character will come into your life and your day-to-day living events will shift positively. This is a guarantee.Being unkind to oneself will attract more 'bad seed' people in our life. Imagine i are a scent. Most beautiful colourful scent, who grew up thinking i 'smells like poo' because of how others treated me... People give out energy.If you uplift yourself and worth, you will attract people/energy that will uplift you. You are worthy, you are of infinite value: you are beautiful magnificent being-remember

For such a hard-hearted hooker you have a very naive even weak notion of romantic love.If pigs are the best youve seen then I'm afraid you havent done so well for yourself there.Hooking might make sense but maybe you could give romance one more try first.Never know might get lucky and meet Johnny Deep

just not having sex for awhile and work on other interests and building your feelings of self worth?

I guess it's "ok" if you're alright with being a whore, being paid to be abused. If you tried doing all these goals by yourself, without the help of some pimp, you would probably feel a lot better. You have had bad relationships in the past because you chose those bad men. Fix yourself and don't continue down this sad hole of despair and quick-fix selfishness.

If you go down that route, be prepared to never have a decent loving guy ever want to be with you again. And you will probably die alone.

Marriages like this anyway.
As long as you have a respectable title and are not just a fwb giving it away for free while being kept a dirty little secret

Just remember, once you turn the tables, you must acknowledge that women are the privileged gender--men cannot half as easily sell themselves for sex and make a good income doing it.