Ya know what

You could have at least said something. You said nothing. Nothing at all. What the hell. It's a fricken game to you. My heart.... You can't even communicate with me the truth. You pour your heart out. I listen. I resipricate​. I validate. You are more concerned about what others think of you. I sacrificed certain things because I fell in love with you. It was totally worth it. Funny to cause I am crazy enough to risk it all again. Why, why would I do this. It's insane. All you ever had to do was communicate with me. What you need. I am not a mind reader. It's getting really tiresome. Your supposed best friend is a liar, & a manipulator. She has proved this many times over, to you. She has some sick obsession with you. Controlling the out come of your life. By manipulating your thinking. It's messed up. Ya know what's more messed up. Is me still being in love with you. That is really messed. I am definitely wearing thin, my emotions. You have an opportunity to make things in your life better. Hopeful. If you know what you lost, then treat it as such. All I ever asked, was for you to tell me exactly how you feel. As best you can. Saying nothing, hurts more then just lieing to me. Time for me to move on. I hope you find happiness it just won't be with me.

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Yikes!

Mar 20, 2017 at 9:23pm

It sounds like we are similarly damaged and attracted to the same person. Sorry you are suffering. I am crying every day over this insensitive jerk, but realize that we are probably dealing with someone who also has been messed up. Please treat yourself with compassion.

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We Tell People How to Treat Us

Mar 21, 2017 at 6:56am

If you put this question and did not get an answer that is your answer. Accept the answer its a Mute answer but it is still everything you need.

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@yikes

Mar 21, 2017 at 7:33am

You're right. I really should be more sensitive. I was just more angry yesterday then usual. It's hard when some of my emotions don't make sense. To sort through all the pain, I feel. Yet, still there is this massive amount of love for her. She is this amazing wonderful women. It's why I fell in love with her in the first place. This is more about me then it is about her. My anger was directed at her because of my own frustration and confusion on how I feel. That's why I wrote it in a confession & didn't say it to her in person. Also her friends well, I know deep down her friends just want to be her rock. Cause she needs that. I just wish my heart didn't hurt as badly as it does.

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