You could have at least said something. You said nothing. Nothing at all. What the hell. It's a fricken game to you. My heart.... You can't even communicate with me the truth. You pour your heart out. I listen. I resipricate. I validate. You are more concerned about what others think of you. I sacrificed certain things because I fell in love with you. It was totally worth it. Funny to cause I am crazy enough to risk it all again. Why, why would I do this. It's insane.
All you ever had to do was communicate with me. What you need. I am not a mind reader. It's getting really tiresome. Your supposed best friend is a liar, & a manipulator. She has proved this many times over, to you. She has some sick obsession with you. Controlling the out come of your life. By manipulating your thinking. It's messed up. Ya know what's more messed up. Is me still being in love with you. That is really messed.
I am definitely wearing thin, my emotions. You have an opportunity to make things in your life better. Hopeful. If you know what you lost, then treat it as such. All I ever asked, was for you to tell me exactly how you feel. As best you can.
Saying nothing, hurts more then just lieing to me.
Time for me to move on. I hope you find happiness it just won't be with me.