I was never a good student. After high school, I wanted to find some job somewhere, learn the ropes, and work my way up the ladder. I learned quickly that jobs like that don't really exist anymore. I eventually earned a B.A. in the hope that it would give me something to bring to the table when looking for work. It hasn't. After a few years of scouring the want ads, the best I could do, apart from my old part-time job, was an $11.00/hour job at Target before it shut down. Now, here I am, on my 3rd college campus. This time I'm trying to get an Accounting diploma so I can get an office job somewhere. I just finished writing my first final exam for accounting. I failed it. Actually, I've failed most of my classes this semester. Its never happened to me before. I always figured out a way to pull out a last minute miracle to pass my classes. But not this time. Because I was never really cut out for school to begin with, I feel as if I've already dug down and depleted whatever reserves of patience, and the ability to focus that I had for sitting in a classroom or burying my nose in a textbook. I sit in the library, start to read about debits and credits, but my eyes just glaze over. I tell myself that my future is on the line as I try to focus. I am spending time and money that I don't have in order to do this. I still can't rid myself of the malaise that's overtaken me. I'm angry, ashamed and despondent over where I am in contrast to my peers. I desperately wish I could go back in time and start my education over again back to when I still had the enthusiasm and drive for academics. I also wish I had listened to people who asked, with alarm, "what are you going to do with that?"when I told them what I was studying. If any college students are reading this, please seek a concentration that employers are actually interested in. You don't want to end up in a classroom later in life like I am while surrounded by students young enough to be my children.