Get over yourself. Why would you want a kid anyways when it's so expensive to have one in one of the most expensive regions in the world

feeling the same way. I was in my late 30's and married and we were trying to have children.
I felt terrible each month. It did happen finally though and we have 2 nice kids though it hasn't always been an easy life. I'm not sure what your situation is but be patient. Bringing a child into the world is an enormous responsibility.

For a new metric on your Self. There's more to life than procreation, your attitude is not helping you one bit.

I won't pretend that I know what you're going through. I am a grandmother. But, as a woman, I do understand the immense emotion surrounding the idea of motherhood. Ignore the ones who can't comprehend the pain you feel. You don't need to justify anything. What you feel is not something that you need to explain. Whatever the future holds for you, all I hope is that you find peace and happiness in it. Whether or not you have a biological child, or adopt, I do hope you find a way to share the love you have to give.

Such excessive drama for an otherwise routine bodily function.

you should get 'victim' tattooed on your forehead. kids suck. the world is overpopulated and the damage to earth is irreparable due to humans, yet you want to bring more into this world? perhaps the tatto should say 'selfish victim'.

I think if your going to have kids you want to be the sort of parent who doesn't feel like a failure over not being pregnant and crying when something out of your control doesn't go your way, maybe it's a lesson. plus stress makes having children even more difficult, its telling your body that now is not a good time, rather than being relaxed, which is a good time, if your trying.

@hugs: thank you for your kind words.

@OP: interestingly, I feel something like the mirror/inverse image of you; having a child is one of my greatest terrors.

I guess were just wired differently.

Is there? Lots of evidence suggests that, especially for women (who are not outliers, like, "typical" women), having children is a fairly important part of life. What's more likely is that the nascent massmedia last century and prior allowed a few very atypical women to "grab the mic" and put out lots of ideas that may work well for themselves, but which don't work for the typical woman.

The reason that typical women have been having babies and families for thousands of years is not "oppression" by 'the patriarchy,' it's because they find it rewarding.

Go see a therapist. Obsessing over and spiralling into depression because you're not pregnant is not healthy. Dealing with the hormones is bad enough; when it gets to this point, you should find someone to discuss this with. It sounds like there might be more to your emotions behind the immediate desire for pregnancy.