My family is small. Just my grandmother and brother. They don't give a flying rats ass about me it seems. My brother hates me for no reason at all so my grandma is not "allowed" to see me. I was in town (I live a few hours away) for three days and wanted to take her for lunch but she kept making excuses. I feel really alone and wish they were there for me. Luckily I have two friends and each of their families have taken me in as their own over the years. It's pretty sad that my friends families are more solid to me than my own flesh and blood. Hopefully some day things change but in the meantime I'm just going to go on living as if they're dead. It's the only way I can feel any other way than being unloved. Thanks for listening.