I seem to be everybody's dream/fantasy woman... Or at least to the men I have come across in the past 8 years that I have been single.
Sure, like most I enjoy sex and close companionship.
I take intimacy very seriously and not often am I drawn to a man easily, but when I am....it's absolute fireworks.
I don't let anyone one in easily either, I am guarded.
As I have learned many years ago, if a man wants a woman they will relentlessly not stop at anything to win her over ... I have witnessed this first hand.
I have had a couple very special people in my life through out these "single" years and I am always the most "amazing" woman to them, I'm beautiful, the sex is the "best", the conversation and connection is like "no other" they "love "me, Yet I never seem to be enough to be the one... Eventually they leave without a goodbye. One "friendship" lasted 7 years.
Since I was young this seemed to be an on going theme.... I'm the most "incredible" woman ever. Intelligent. "Above and beyond " everyone else, but yet I remain alone.
So, maybe I'm a dreamer or gullible or possibly not that "safe/everyday" woman that they would think of settling down with. I don't get it, all I have ever done was be myself, honest with an open heart and loved them as much as I possibly could.
It pains me to see my ex lovers move on to serious, fulfilling relationships with others while I sit alone, never with an actual established relationship feeling stuck in limbo, as if I'm not allowed of anything better although I know I am more than deserving.