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posted Sunday, July 22, 2012 at 4:08am
Being recently diagnosed Bipolar has been overwhelming, even though I knew the truth, for years, in the back of my crazy mind.
A Bipolar diagnoses only adds a ton more (emotional) weight to the hellish roller coaster ride I've had in my life for the past 15 years.
Along with my truamatic brain injury, complex ptsd, high anxiety, ocd and (most recent) bipolar, I REALLY feel stuck between a friggen boulder and a hard place.
My life will go on, I know its not the end of the world. I never thought it was the end of the world, just to clarify :) I have searched and searched online to almost no avail, for resources and support, that I feel comfortable with and are appropriate to me and my situation From books, to personal and public blogs, to online forums of support. My racing brain always gets the best of me. I wish MY world would slow down, for once, just for a moment.
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Jul 22, 2012 at 9:41 pm
Try reading "An Unquiet Mind", by Kay Redfield Jamison. This is a very interesting book written by Dr. Jamison, who earned her PhD (I believe in psychology) while she was manic. She was working in psych units and treating patients, all the while hiding her own secret that she was manic-depressive.
What makes the book unique is that she tells her story from both perspectives - what it's like to BE bi-polar (how it feels from the inside), as well as from a clinician's perspective (how it looks on the outside).
It took great courage for her to write this book, as she risked killing her career with its publication. From a quick check on Wikipedia, it appears not to have hurt it in the slightest.
Maybe you can find something helpful here. Best of luck with it. The diagnosis sucks, but medication can help. The challenging thing is to stay on it. Hugs.
What makes the book unique is that she tells her story from both perspectives - what it's like to BE bi-polar (how it feels from the inside), as well as from a clinician's perspective (how it looks on the outside).
It took great courage for her to write this book, as she risked killing her career with its publication. From a quick check on Wikipedia, it appears not to have hurt it in the slightest.
Maybe you can find something helpful here. Best of luck with it. The diagnosis sucks, but medication can help. The challenging thing is to stay on it. Hugs.
Jul 23, 2012 at 12:05 am
I'm just a stranger online....in the confessions section of the Straight.
But know this:
You are loved, you are wonderful human being. This diagnosis does not define you. Sorry to hear about your past, but your thoughts and feelings will always be temporary good and bad.
Your life will slow down when you're at peace with yourself. Give yourself and your body time to heal not only from physical ailments but mental too.
I highly suggest talking to someone on a regular basis, not necessarily a psychologist, someone to make you feel like you're not battling this alone (because you're not!).
Best of luck to you! You sound like an incredibly tough person.
But know this:
You are loved, you are wonderful human being. This diagnosis does not define you. Sorry to hear about your past, but your thoughts and feelings will always be temporary good and bad.
Your life will slow down when you're at peace with yourself. Give yourself and your body time to heal not only from physical ailments but mental too.
I highly suggest talking to someone on a regular basis, not necessarily a psychologist, someone to make you feel like you're not battling this alone (because you're not!).
Best of luck to you! You sound like an incredibly tough person.
Jul 23, 2012 at 12:12 pm
My mother is a Schizophrenic and so I grew up with the disease. I am also afraid that someday soon it may start creeping into my life. I can 't say I understand your situation, and I know they are different diseases, but I do hear /feel for you.
Jul 23, 2012 at 5:53 pm
I greatly admire you for speaking openly about your condition. It speaks volumes for those who are presently keeping their symptoms in the back of their mind. I think you are so very strong to makes steps to have a healthier life. Don't call yourself crazy as you have had the sense enough to seek help.
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