the crush

You all have been there. I wish I wasn't. I wish I could make it go away. And fast. It would wreck a perfectly good friendship. He is such a great guy. I can't wait to talk to him. I can't wait to see those blue eyes. Hear his laugh. Listen to his strange & funny stories. Listen to his problems and his solutions. Listen to his observations about his day. Hear the sound of his voice. Watch his strange movements as he wanders through my house. I know that he's never going to fall in love with me; no matter how much I laugh at his jokes, or how much I care about him. I understand we are just friends. I just want him to be happy; and if not with me; I pray that he finds the happiness that he's looking so hard to find. So I need to put it to rest. I'm sad I won't see him again, but I'm hoping he'll find that all consuming, heart stopping love, he wants above all else. He is a kind & sweet man. So I pray to the universe that he find the answers to himself & find that love that enhances his life. I pray to the universe to help me get over this crush, so I can get on with it.