posted Tuesday, July 10, 2012 at 12:43am
With the recent announcement that employment in my demographic is at a 30-year low and dropped an unprecedented amount over the last quarter, I know I should be grateful to just be employed. And I am. Believe me, I'm glad to have money coming in at all, and I don't want to imagine what it's like for other people like me who can't find anything. But quite frankly I can't fucking stand the kind of work I'm doing. Getting paid nickels and dimes above minimum wage to be treated like someone's groveling foot stool by customers, to listen to my racist, sexist, homophobic, spoiled and entitled "daddy pays my bills" co-workers, and then get the run around from spineless managers and given passive aggressive bullshit from cunty, bovine mid-level managers when you bring issues to their attention just isn't fucking worth it. I'm trying to be humble. I remind myself every day of all the things I have that others might not and all of the ways I am lucky, but I know I don't deserve this. The more I try to make myself grateful for this job (and I am grateful for having a steady income, removed from the work!), the more I feel like I'm demeaning myself by suggesting it. I, along with a lot of my coworkers, are so much better than having to listen to how we need to bend over further backwards, stretch ourselves more thin, be grateful for getting the burnt bottom scrapings from a multi-billion dollar world wide corporation's pot. I'm looking for other jobs actively, but most expect years of experience and don't offer wages relevant to that. There is no consolation in knowing the people getting the jobs that I would have been ideal for six years ago are now also too qualified for them, but will have to deal with it for now. We shouldn't have to be grateful for these jobs when we've invested the time and money into ourselves, our educations, and by extension our economy. We all deserve better than this.