I feel like a total psycho!

I am not in grade 7 anymore but I have developed a school-girl crush on some dude who is not even my type. I am an attractive woman who is not desperate so I don't get it. Can't stop thinking about this guy and I feel creepy. I even googled his name! I felt electricity between us and I thought he felt the same way but he hasn't made a move. I can't stop talk slipping his name into random conversations. I feel so lame and I don't want to like him anymore. I am a harmless nutcase; not a bunny boiler by any means. I know when to take a hint, but I haven't received any hints yet. Maybe I just need to get laid!