I think about you every day.

So I know this is classic and I am not ashamed that when I think about you and our break up and tortured last few years I cry. I spent a good portion of my vacation talking about you and the crying. I love hanging out with you, even though it means I go home and cry after. WTF. You have always wondered why you have the types of friendships that you do; not getting enough from your friends; feeling unappreciated and now I know...you are the one that you don't like.. It is YOU that you are disappointed in. People do think that you are too consumed to be their friends. Break down those walls. I knew that in our LTR you fell out of love with me...I moved to be with you. I would have done anything to be around you and that is my problem. I should have let you go so long ago. Fuck. So yes I will be your friend and always be in your life and be kind and watch you fall in love with someone else because I love you and want the best for you, it's just too bad you had it already because now I know that I am going to hard to replace. Now I will spend my thirties wondering if we could have made it work while becoming a cougar and watching you grow up.