Im sorry - but I still love you

I have wanted so badly to contact you and ask you to run away with me, but i know its better that I don't. Im so sorry I F'd everything up. I sincerely thought I could move on but to much was going on then for me to be with you and it will always be this way and I cant do that to you I love you way too much to destroy your life the way I would by being with you. I know you wont see this and I hope you wont see this but its the closest I could get to telling you without breaking your heart again. I just wish I could shout it to the heavens I love you my cowardly lion. the day I first saw you at that program through school I felt an incredible pull to you and I even would get excited to go to the program just because you would be there , oh what young fools we were to throw what we had away.