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posted Saturday, August 4, 2012 at 10:39pm
I'm an ex soldier living with my family, attending university.
I have a beautiful Asian girlfriend of many years.
The problem is, they angry at me when I don't want to watch fireworks. I respectfully decline, pretending I have better things to do.
In reality, I'm suffering from CSR. I don't want anyone to know that I'm shell shocked from active duty. It's nothing serious, but prolonged loud bangs make me panic or overly aggressive. It's why I bought my new headphones that cover my ears fully recently.
Truth is, one day I want to bring my kids (God willing) to Disneyland. I feel that is the only time I'll truly get over these fears (when they pop fireworks at the end of the night).
Thanks for sticking around reading the post. I hope everyone who did go enjoyed the fireworks though. :)
- W
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Aug 5, 2012 at 8:51 am
why is it necessary to state you have an asian girlfriend??? we get it, you are asian and so is she. it has no bearing on the shell shock issue or does it? and why dont you just tell her.? If you cant be open to discuss imporatnt issues with her what type of woman or relationship do you really have????????
Aug 5, 2012 at 12:55 pm
Why don't you want them to know the truth? This doesn't sound like anything to hide or be embarrassed by. They would probably understand and appreciate the honesty.
Aug 5, 2012 at 1:26 pm
Like the above poster, thanks for all you have done for people. I don't know exactly what you are going through, but I have a cousin who came home from duty with PTSD. I also suffer from anxiety attacks. We have talked about our experiences together (though so very different) and it truly seems to help. There is just something about being honest and open about it that seems to lessen the impact of the attacks we both experienced. Tell people. Talk about it. You just might find more compassion and support than you had ever imagined. What you are going through seems completely reasonable (in response to what you must have gone through). You are completely ok. And in time, you will take your kids to Disneyland and enjoy it as much as they do!! All my best wishes to you!! D
Aug 6, 2012 at 11:24 am
You fought for our country and need to find the strength to admit:
A) you have a problem
B) It's bigger than you can handle alone
C) You need professional Psychological help
Get the help you need now, so you can look back and be thankful you did. Or... Continue living in fear, anxiety, depression and loneliness.
You need to make a decision and follow through.
A) you have a problem
B) It's bigger than you can handle alone
C) You need professional Psychological help
Get the help you need now, so you can look back and be thankful you did. Or... Continue living in fear, anxiety, depression and loneliness.
You need to make a decision and follow through.
Aug 9, 2012 at 1:10 pm
I agree with the person who posted about about saying you should just tell your loved ones. It's nothing at all to be embarrassed about!! They love you, they will understand. Then you don't have to feel awkward the next time you decline an invite to a noisy event :) Take care!
Aug 11, 2012 at 5:34 pm
thank you for everything you have gone through being a soldier in a war zone is something i don't know because of brave men and women like you. i can totally understand your condition and the negative affects fireworks could have on anyone who has had your experience. what i don't understand is why you family and friends can not seem to have any compassion or understanding for you in this way?
i would encourage you to do whatever you need to do to cope. be as honest and open as you can with your family and friends. Peace + Love.
i would encourage you to do whatever you need to do to cope. be as honest and open as you can with your family and friends. Peace + Love.
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