Ugh.

So i pushed a guy away from me out of fear of falling in love to quick. I fell in love once before and when we called off the relationship i was heart broken and woishing i had life easier. I do not think i let go of the last guy and feel like i misas him every so often. It feels aweful down inside that i got scared of a rebroken heart. is this feeling ever going to gio away? It has been a few days and i am still scared and confused. To cope i drink more than i normally do.