i used to be a slut, i guess. i was sexually liberated and didn't attach myself to any individual just because i had an intimate relationship with him or her. i was more appreciating the experience and looking for a good time. i still don't think of it as trashy or cheap but i understand why some may see it that way. now i'm almost four years into a committed, amazingly loving relationship with the man of my dreams. while i would never dream of cheating on him i still wish i had something to myself: a dirty text message buddy; my daily work flirt whose just a bit more than that. i wonder if it's wrong to wonder if i'm still desirable to other people even though i'm almost perfectly happy.