posted Thursday, December 27, 2012 at 1:42am
My life has changed since the accident. I sustained a head/brain injury earlier this year, and I'm doing my best to adapt and cope to a new reality with post concussion syndrome symptoms. The medical doctors I've been referred to have misdiagnosed me and reported inaccurate information that is damaging and misleading. Now my own doctor says unbelievable things to me including "stop crying. I don't want to see you crying anymore. Stop taking notes. You're irrational. We can't have a conversation. If you want come back next week." Doesn't anybody understand me and what I'm going through? This situation really causes me more additional stress than I can handle and last week I had suicidal thoughts because I feel completely misunderstood and I don't want to live like this. I'm feel at the end of my rope because I'm an honest person and they're making me out to be dishonest by omitting critical accurate information or adding false or inaccurate information and on top of being injured and off work, now I feel I have to defend myself. I don't understand how these medical doctors can be so careless and unethical? I feel taken advantage of when I am at a disadvantage. It's like these doctors judge me with predetermined prejudices and use my coping methods and intelligence against me and tell me they can't help me because I take notes, I don't believe in taking endless prescription cocktails especially without proper medical counseling regarding drug interactions, and I'm articulate. I'm sorry if I'm not behaving or acting the way you think I should be or the ways you want me to. Just because I have a head/brain injury does not mean my intelligence has diminished. I feel like such a mess. I know I'm not the same since the accident and I just want myself, my body, brain, and spirit restored to the way I was before the accident. If anyone can offer me support, encouragement or advice, I would really appreciate it. I need a light at the end of the tunnel, and to feel someone understands me with compassion. That would be a Gift to me. Thanks.