posted Wednesday, December 19, 2012 at 3:20am
I originally agreed to meet up with you, handsome man, for sex. I didn't know you would actually take me out for non-sexual activities. I didn't know you'd be so cool. But since I put out the first night, I get the feeling that's all you'll think I want out of this. Fuck. I wish I had kept more concealed instead of putting it all out there the first couple nights. I feel like I ruined a legitimate chance at having an awesome relationship by misreading (and getting drunk) the first night. You live and you learn, I guess. I just wish I learned how to be a better date before our first date so I could call you without either of us expecting to bone.