posted Friday, June 7, 2013 at 10:36pm
i think of you all the time. you aren't right. we are completely different. i'm like a combo of nick/winston/schmidt from new girl and you are an unfunny french jerry seinfeld. both satisfying in their own right, but they don't mix. even that culture reference is lost on you. so different. but i am consumed by thoughts of when i'll bump into you next. waiting and wanting you to call, even though you never will. you never liked me to begin with. you treated me like shit until i left. i see you everywhere. dark hair, brown eyes, posture, walk, accent. you are everywhere. it is torture walking down a busy street. i miss you and i wished you missed me too. i could have been yours completely. and i am so aware that it wasn't meant to be. but i'm being such a vagina about the whole thing. i don't want to still want you. but i do. i still want you to want me so bad.