I'm in University.. she has a few years left of HS. We only met once, but she left such a deep impression on me that I pretty much can't develop feelings for anyone else. We are NOT dating, and I would never risk my life to do anything illegal. I just admire her for now, and in a while, when it's closer to being "socially acceptable" I'll ask her out. But honestly, I resent all the people who make an age difference such a big deal.

Recently I suggested to my wife she should hook up with some random strangers for sex. When we first met she was into this type of thing and told me about her various experiences. Hearing about what she did turned me on a lot! We then started what was primarily a monogamous relationship. During this time we hooked up with another couple but only got oral. We picked up another girl twice, but that’s it. (I didn’t fuck her) Our sex life tapered off over the years to the point where we were rarely having sex. She told me that she was just not feeling sexual anymore. There was a lot of stress in our lives so it was somewhat understandable. As a man I’m constantly thinking about sex so this was a tough situation. Recently I discovered she was discussing BDSM with some other guy. She told me she was interested in the lifestyle but didn’t think I was. Said she was also was trying to spark up her sex drive and hadn’t met the guy in person, just a number of calls. Of course this pissed me off because we have always been so open. We dropped the issue and I told her we need to be completely open with each other and that includes whatever turns her on. I found her a few guys from Craigslist that are into BDSM and we’re going to meet them together. I’m just going to sit back and watch the show as I ‘m not sure how into it I am. I’ve arranged one meeting so far with a guy for a NSA blowjob (picked her up at a location, she blew him, she came home!) If she goes out on her own all I ask is to be provided with full details and to be kept in the loop. It turns her on to have the freedom to do such kinky things and it turns me on hearing about them.