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This has to be a the worst soul crushing experience. I have been sending out applications and nothing. I cater my resume to the job. I had one HR person say that it is so competitive now. Sad. I even tried applying to McDonalds...the lady said I was not qualified. Ouch! I have a grad degree in Science. I am desperate.

Freaked out

There have been 3 attacks on women in East van since January. Two of them were only at 8pmish at night. These ladies were just walking around from point a to b. That is not late at all and the attacker attempted a sexual assault. My confession is that I am totally freaked out. How do you protect yourself when it is so early at night and in your neighbourhood??? I'm getting a personal alarm. jeebus!

I think it's just me...

but I cringe when people couple up and become a new entity called 'WE'. Not 'we' as in needing to use it in a sentence but 'we' as in, ' I am no longer me. I am WE'.

Why are you creeping?

My ex accidentally followed my facebook profile while creeping and then blocked me. LOL We've both moved on so why are you creeping?

The One

I used to look for 'the one' and expect others to be 'the one' who has all the desired characteristics and be all snivelled when expectations and dreams were not met, and realized this is me not the one and I have to be The One who is The One to my partner.

weird spam

I am only 24 years old, yet I have actually already chosen my last tie. It’s the one that I will wear on my funeral a few months from now. It may not match my suit, but I think it’s perfect for the occasion. The cancer diagnosis came too late to give me at least a tenuous hope for a long life, but I realized that the most important thing about death is to ensure that you leave this world a little better than it was before you existed with your contributions . The way I’ve lived my life so far, my existence or more precisely the loss of it, will not matter because I have lived without doing anything impactful. Before, there were so many things that occupied my mind. When I learned how much time I had left, however, it became clear which things are really important. So, I am writing to you for a selfish reason. I want to give meaning to my life by sharing with you what I have realized: Don’t waste your time on work that you don’t enjoy. It is obvious that you cannot succeed in something that you don’t like. Patience, passion, and dedication come easily only when you love what you do. It’s stupid to be afraid of others’ opinions. Fear weakens and paralyzes you. If you let it, it can grow worse and worse every day until there is nothing left of you, but a shell of yourself. Listen to your inner voice and go with it. Some people may call you crazy, but some may even think you‘re a legend. Take control of your life Take full responsibility for the things that happen to you. Limit bad habits and try to lead a healthier life. Find a sport that makes you happy. Most of all, don’t procrastinate. Let your life be shaped by decisions you made, not by the ones you didn’t. Appreciate the people around you Your friends and relatives will always be an infinite source of strength and love. That is why you shouldn’t take them for granted. It is difficult for me to fully express my feelings about the importance of these simple realizations, but I hope that you will listen to someone who has experienced how valuable time is. I'm not upset because I understand that the last days of my life have become meaningful. I only regret that I will not be able to see a lot of cool stuff that should happen soon like the creation of AI, or Elon Musk’s next awesome project. I also hope that the war in Syria and Ukraine will end soon. We care so much about the health and integrity of our body that until death, we don’t notice that the body is nothing more than a box - a parcel for delivering our personality, thoughts, beliefs and intentions to this world. If there is nothing in this box that can change the world, then it doesn’t matter if it disappears. I believe that we all have potential, but it also takes a lot of courage to realize it. You can float through a life created by circumstances, missing day after day, hour after hour. Or, you can fight for what you believe in and write the great story of your life. I hope you will make the right choice. Leave a mark in this world. Have a meaningful life, whatever definition it has for you. Go towards it. The place we are leaving is a beautiful playground, where everything is possible. Yet, we are not here forever. Our life is a short spark in this beautiful little planet that flies with incredible speed to the endless darkness of the unknown universe. So, enjoy your time here with passion. Make it interesting. Make it count! Thank you!


I'm fuckin annoyed today. Probably just being a little bitch about my new diet. I didn't realize how addicted to carbs I am. All I want right now is chips and pizza.

When you start to like that you are just like your parents...

Sure, they don't troll hipsters on the Georgia Strait confessions, but I'm otherwise starting to see myself as a hybrid between both of my parents. I like it too. Freaky? I'm almost dirty-30 too! If it can happen to me, it can happen to you!

The path to no friends

So I've never owned a cellphone. I'm 32. Typically people assume I'm lying about not having one and that I just don't want to be in contact. In the past year I went vegan, for many reasons, which has been frustrating. Not for any nutritional lack, but because I have to turn down dinner invitations, and then hear "Oh, you're vegan! I could never give up the cheese" "I could never give up my bacon" "How do you get your protein?" and I am starting to have this problem where I feel like stabbing everyone in the face, and instead I have to smile because I'm the one who isn't the norm.

Why did I do this?

I have only been living with my two roommates for a month and a half, and I already wholeheartedly regret this decision. I wish we all would have discussed it more and thought this through before moving in together. I would like to go back to having my own place again, just the presence of my psychotic roommate is extremely uncomfortable and makes me want to stay in my room when I am home. There's always something wrong, and I never seem to give her enough attention. She ignores me and my other roommate when we watch shows together or hangout. Anyway, I just needed to vent. If I bring anything up to her she just completely flips on me and somehow turns it around and makes it all seem like it's my fault she acts this way. So far the only solution I have come up with is to just leave, since it seems to get worse as times goes on. This is the first and last time I live with other people!

Lick it before you stick it

This has become my anti-bullying anthem - when anyone is being an asshole or even when I am feeling like one, I just play Denise Lasalle in my mind and can feel no hatred or stress only pure slap happiness and soaring joy.

I don't feel love anymore

I've been fucked over, abused, and hurt so many times that I cannot love another person. I just can't give a fuck about another person. They are all assholes. I try to but all I see is their flaws and how they might hurt me then I sabotage the relationship. It's a depressing cycle that has left me with only a few close friends. Even them I don't love because I'm just waiting for the day when they too leave me. Everything in my life has come with a catch. I want to be able to trust people and not wonder what their motivation is. I need help and people just tell me to talk to a Dr. I can't afford a psychiatrist or counselling services and I hate all doctors. I find they are stupid over paid dumbasses that don't listen and just follow textbooks. They don't care to talk to you to find the root of the problem they just want to push drugs to mask symptoms then rush you out of the office.

The Moment

This is the point where I pull out my Varon-T disruptor and shoot myself. Ugh...I read way too many depressing articles about how messed-up we humans still are. Long way to go.

I am going to be my own boyfriend

I've been feeling very lonely lately. I was laying in bed staring out the window tonight thinking why does it have to be like this? Something popped into my mind.. I'm searching daily, looking at people on the street wondering is that my soul mate? Where is my soul mate and will I ever find them at all in this life? In the past I've found when I become obsessed with the idea of love it seems it's nowhere to be found. When I finally give up and begin to just go about my life not caring I become happy and this energy flowing from me seems to eventually attract people. At that point I'm kind of feeling like it seems like a cruel joke and I'm no longer interested. I've found I'm entertained with my own company by then. What if somehow we knew that we would never find our soulmate? If we knew for sure for whatever reason that we would never truly find love. I was thinking.. how would I live my life differently? This is somewhat strange but tomorrow I'm going to try to be my own boyfriend. I wrote out a list of what my perfect soulmate would be like. Tomorrow I'm going to treat myself as if I am my own true love. my soul mate: -shares my sense of humor. -is also shy -doesn't intimidate me with intelligence - is very happy -accepts me for who I am -doesn't mind me being a hermit -gives me positive affirmations about myself when I'm feeling down -tells me I'm beautiful, unique and powerful -loves my natural beauty but also loves when I wear makeup (as long as I'm happy) - does not ridicule me -influences and brings out the best in me by staying positive -brings out my creative side -encourages me to be healthy -loves me unconditionally.

It makes no sense

Why is my face permanently set the way it is? I look bitchy even smiling. Am I sitting on a sharp rock? Do I have painful hemorrhoids? Is it just my winning personality shining through?


Colin Firth look alike at Against Me! Show

I was giving you the eyes from a distance in between the sets of Dave Haus and Against Me! on the...