I want nothing but the best for you. Real is real regardless. A bad reaction or missed meaning or intent, no matter how much is thought harmless...can do harm. When you look into the dark in oneself...you take away it's power. I am at peace...and peacing more everyday. "An un examined life is one not worth living". Please find your peace as well.

I think it's naive to think someone who loves you won't judge you. ...Would someone who loves you watch all your demons come out and just stay quiet? Watch your self-destructive behaviour manifest?

Just common sense
Capacity to discern right and wrong
Someone did the right thing
When we able to be ourselves is always a risk been accepted or rejected
Having expectations could be disappointing
Don't
Just be happy you were yourself

run and hide

I wasn't the one hiding. I too have issues with abandonment & rejection. Preconceived bias and avoidance of emotional pain and fear is something we have in common. I got blocked trying to explain how sorry I was, but my explaination also was full of my own misconceptions of how I see myself, which is I am not worthy because I am a horrible person. Now he most likely sees me from my own negative viewpoint. I thought I worked through this in therapy, but seeing him unexpectly brought these patterns back from the dark recesses of my mind. I am working on reshaping those negative patterns, so I don't repeat this closed loop again. I miss you and you will always be the one that I let go too soon

@Samantha Bautista Thanks I am working on forgiving myself and my preconceived bias.

Love You!

Open up that loop, and, with the right spin, we might have a lot of fun. You never let go. You rightly expected that I would chase and fight for you. Natural grace got in the way and remains a great regret. I was just getting started. Please be stronger than your past- the future may still give you a chance...