I want a bois who will laugh for no one else
When I'm away he puts his makeup on the shelf
When I'm away he never leaves the house
I want a boi who laughs for no one else

Don’t you tell him? You are spending your life fretting about someone who doesn’t know you exist in a romantic realm. Deal with it now and ruin the friendship if you must because you’re only driving yourself mad. As soon as you know he doesn’t want you, you can move on. The friendship is already fucked because you are in love. Don’t you get it?

It's time we are both so unfuckinghappy it's laughable what an easy fix it is if fear doesn't keep winning the race. I'm dying without you so we may not have much to make a go of it. I mean it's really much harder than I ever thought it could be to be totally without you. Ya know?