Time to get a dog. At least they are loyal, and kind..... If I hear one more wedding announcement, I'm going to lose it. (though we all deserve love, and to have it, but not all of us find it) To my friends, quit telling me not to give up when most of you are all in relationships. I'm NOT interested in hookups, fwbs and gone without sex for years by choice because I want to be in a relationship and only then will that person see that side of me. Man are some men relentless about trying to wear you down though and can't understand the word no! It's so bloody hard to find a guy that is monogamous, respectful, and that I can connect with on an intellectual level, and emotional level, and where there's a mutual attraction. Yes, women want someone we are attracted to, (not a pretty boy, just cute) Doesn't have to be rich, just have a job/career. Not all women want or need your money. We have careers and ambitions too. many women i know settle, yet men never do! Women are crucified for wanting certain things that men do, but get ripped apart for it. Why? I've seen far too many smart, independent, gorgeous women settle so they aren't alone, and be abused, cheated on etc..... Yet, I'm starting to understand now as I'm middle aged why they do as its tough being alone. I'm just wishing I could just be okay with being alone, and not get asked about why I'm not married, why won't I try dating, and why I'm alone. I want to be with an equal, and a man with character and depth. Also, don't make sexual remarks about a woman you don't know. Not flattering at all having body parts commented on.... That's my rant. Now, just waiting for the negative comments by men to confirm what I already believe, and further solidify my beliefs about (most) men. Just look at the stats worldwide for women with abuse, trauma, rape, cheating, forced marriages, arranged marriages, and the countless atrocities women endure simply because of men. Yes, I'm a survivor, and you would not believe how many men prey on you.... Honestly, men have no idea how scary it is for women to date. Women are more sexually fluid, and many women are choosing relationships with women that once were with men too. Something to keep in mind guys. If you have a good woman, don't fuck it up! Man this was a rambly, incoherent post...