fuck my birthday

"happy birthday" whats so fucking happy about it? if I was never born then I wouldn't have to be here. fuck this "so lucky to be alive" bullshit. I am so jealous of people who get to die in their sleep. the day I die and finally get to leave this shit hole earth and society and all this hatred and never see it again, THAT is the day I should celebrate.

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Happy birthday, friend.

Jun 19, 2018 at 11:32pm

I'm really sorry you are feeling this much pain. I understand how the self reflection of a birthday can bring up the shittiness of life.

Being a person is a tough job. Most people try to act like it isn't a challenge but people of all backgrounds and financial standings have a tough go of things pretty regularly but rich/good looling/well connected people have the resources to cover up their stress than the rest of us.

Hurting is part of the human experience but you sound like you have survived some pretty difficult situations if life is making you this mad. I really hope you know that you are bigger and better than your bank account, group of friends, job title, consumed entertainment or anything else we pretend is a measure of our value. Being wronged makes us lose sight of the fact that we were born super cool and then everyone else's bullshit left an impression on us so we become distracted but your worth is just in you even having the experience of feeling this way.

I really hope this heaviness lifts because it is exhausting to feel valueless. You are super important even if no one else says it. We gotta say it to ourselves.

If you feel really rough please call the Nurses line or a hotline for self injury and talk to someone.

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Doing time on planet Earth

Jun 20, 2018 at 12:31am

This is impossible to explain to normal people who fear death and think that life is a gift.
Maybe it is. I believe the jury's still out. Insufficient data.
When they say that any day among the living is a good day, my first thought is "How would you know? Maybe being dead is so amazing, no one wants to come back."
I may be around for another hundred years (or more), but that is actually my worst-case scenario.
I'm alive, here, as myself, because of a long series of events, variously unlikely and stretching back decades. This fact helps me focus on what is truly important and ignore the rest.

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All you need...

Jun 20, 2018 at 8:30am

"A good name is better than fine perfume,
and the day of death better than the day of birth.
...
The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning,
but the heart of fools is in the house of pleasure." (Ecclesiastes 7:1,4. NIV.)

"Some got six month some got one solid.
Some got one solid year indeed-e
Some got six month some got one solid.
But me and my buddies all got lifetime here"
(Viola Lee Blues, Noah Lewis.)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ClC_KizCpQk

... is good love.

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Capt. Obvious

Jun 20, 2018 at 10:26am

But you won't be able to celebrate the day you die because you're... well... dead.

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Cody Benedict

Jun 20, 2018 at 10:53am

Life is like tht, we all have ups and downs. If you don't have any ups yet, its just not the timing. Keep your chin up and do something you think tht's meaning in life. You will find your happiness. I believe that you can accomplish anything you want in life if you try hard, you will find your happiness and there will always be people like us supporting you. We are here for you!

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So much

Jun 20, 2018 at 9:39pm

living death these days

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Good, you're angry

Jun 21, 2018 at 9:16am

That anger means you're not depressed.
Just a few more steps upward and you'll eventually get to comfortably numb like most.

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Babealish

Jun 23, 2018 at 2:10am

I still think you're great.. Irregardless.. <3

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