OP you made my day, it's hard to explain. I'm kind of in awe of your level of honesty and self-understanding. I think that's a rare and beautiful thing. I'm sorry your folks weren't very supportive with you growing up. I think your life goals are excellent and that you can do it. As for raising kids, I think honestly you should do what feels right for you. If you want to have kids, and think you can give them a better shot than your parents, then I think you should think about it. Or you know, being an aunt/uncle, caretaker, caregiver, Big Brother/Sister whatever! One of the most inspiring people in my life is on the aspergers spectrum. One day, he just told me: "friendship is magic, bitch!!!" (Like in the Pony show, but with bitch at the end). I've honestly never heard words more true, and it still crosses my mind once in a while. Thank you for sharing. Have a fantastic one!