Yes, I'm in pain and I don't agree with any of it and I'm torn up over how it was done. But I want my ex to know that I love them and I want them to be well and happy. And I also want them to know that I don't much care about being with anyone else right now (nor for the foreseeable future); I'm working on myself properly for the first time in my life. I have an inkling that they think I'm focused on replacing them, and that couldn't be further from the truth. Anyway - it's too bad that we can't/shouldn't talk. I can't because of the pain, but it also hurts to think that I might live my life and die without ever speaking to them again. I sort of wish we could just read each other's minds and give each other a mental hug or something. But even that would hurt me.