I keep wondering if my whole life will be like this, I have friends, I have a partner and they are people I care for dearly, but I'm always left doing so much alone. I'm a transplant with no family in province, my partner is born/raised here with childhood friends around, I'm even friends with the exes which seems to accentuate my situation. This isn't just a location thing, it's something I've experienced for a long time. I shop alone, go to the park alone, 99% of my beach days my book is my company. I'm not unloved or avoided, this just seems to be what is, what will be.