I drink.

I drink alone. I don't go out with friends, I don't socialize, I stay home and drink. It comforts me. It feels like I have some warmth and company when, in fact, I am completely and utterly lonely. I don't drink hardbar, and stick with beer, but I start doing it in the morning and go steadily until bedtime. I never really get shitfaced, but I sustain the pleasant feeling it provides me throughout the day. Otherwise, I'm completely miserable. I work from home, I've had my heart busted into pieces this year, I don't even have to try. Someone tell me to stop, and why. Please. Given everything I read on here, living in Vancouver is reason enough to do what I do.

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Anonymous

Sep 11, 2018 at 12:08pm

It gets worse. That's why you want to deal with it.

That's all.

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By taking the pain away

Sep 11, 2018 at 12:38pm

... you eliminate the need to change your life.

By dulling your senses, you become complacent and accepting of the status quo.

You should feel the rage, the sadness, the anger, the loneliness, even if it’s hurts, to motivate yourself into changed behaviour.

Not only that, drinking is expensive, and you gain weight real fast.

Three solid reasons to quit.

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As someone who's been there

Sep 11, 2018 at 12:44pm

please stop now before it escalates.
And it will escalate, it always does.
You will start to get shit-faced, your home business will start to suffer, your mental and physical health will start to deteriorate.
I know what i'm talking about, stopped drinking a couple of years ago and life today is not perfect but I'm content on most days.

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Alcohol...

Sep 11, 2018 at 12:50pm

Takes everything and gives nothing. Change your ways. It's almost too late.

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Anonymous

Sep 11, 2018 at 1:06pm

You are an alcoholic. Get help.

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Me too

Sep 11, 2018 at 1:21pm

I was in the same situation. Time heal all wounds. Try limiting it or try doing some challenges where you don't drink for awhile. One step at a time my friend. I wish you all the best.

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Someone.

Sep 11, 2018 at 2:47pm

Stop.

Because you told me to say so.

Personally, I would recommend stopping because people who drink all day smell like alcohol.

However, what you do and how you live your life is entirely your business.

I also recommend suffering through whatever it is you have to suffer through in the course of doing the right thing, rather than trying to make things easier or less painful.

Life can be tough, and putting up with it and all the shit it throws at you will make you proud.

Quit cold turkey and don't look back. You'll feel bad, then you'll feel normal.

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reasons?

Sep 11, 2018 at 2:50pm

It's taking up too much of your time and you're not learning anything new from it.

You have day drinking figured out. You know how to do it, what it does for you. It is not all bad, it helps numb the pain of life. So you can say that you have got it mastered and you can go back to it whenever you want.

But, is it so fulfilling that you have no interest in other things? My guess is no. You seem pretty intelligent. You have some interests in the outside world.

I would handle it like this: you are going to explore something different. Something that the drinking, good as it is, inhibits because it involves, I dunno, fast reflexes and fast judgement, something you always thought might be neat to get good at, but you haven't got around to it.

Get around to that thing.

Commit to it. Give it a real shot. Don't laze out. You'll know if you are sincere about it or not.

And enjoy that thing! Enjoy being bad at it, failing, falling. Then enjoy signs of progress. Then enjoy being good at it.

Remember, you don't have to swear off the juice, you're not abstaining, you're not making grand declarations. You're just trying something else, and, for while that lasts, the day drinking is incompatible.

Think of it like swimming and painting. You like swimming, but you want to try painting, which requires you not to be swimming simultaneously. You're not vowing never to swear again - making vows like that doesn't work, does it? It makes way too much of a big deal out of it, doesn't it? It kinda makes it in a dare, right?

So, take the tension off. Drinking is a hobby, it's fun, it's useful, it has certain psychic powers.

But it is interfering with other things, so, for now, content yourself with what you have accomplished in the drinking field and try something else.

What have you got to lose?

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been there.

Sep 11, 2018 at 3:00pm

no judgement. hugs to you. if you rise or fall from this, hugs to you.

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Anonymous

Sep 11, 2018 at 7:06pm

liver failure & pancreatic cancer are super crappy ways to go. I'd recommend you blaze instead of drink.

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