I blew it ! If I had that morning back I would not be a coward, hurtful and self-centred piece of shit. I never thought of how much courage it must of took for you to start that conversation and how hurt and angry you must have been when I cut you off and denied you. I swear to God when I finally figured it out I balled my eyes out. I know exactly how awful it feels to step up and that person so easily denies your feelings. I'm an empath so for me to miss what I did was so wrong and really showed where my head was at. I was wrong, my God the regret I feel is killing me slowly but surely. Today is my birthday the one person I wish I could enjoy this day with, is with someone else. Someone so wrong and disgusting I cry knowing that it was likely my actions over the last 2 yrs that have pushed you to this. Sweetheart I know you love me, deny that all you want, but I'll still be alone and sad today. You'll be angry and with the one person you should be the farthest away from. I am so sorry you were so strong especially after the loss you had just suffered. I was such a coward. Scared of getting hurt again. Funny though the pain I feel now is a small piece by comparison to what I went through just before I met you.
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