All the things I cannot say

That I can’t wait to see you but I can’t bring myself to find you. That I’m so happy when you come find me and so sad when you leave to be with someone else. That I believe you every time you tell me I’m not your type and am so confused every time you look at me like I am. That you pull and push and pull and I hate it. That I know I’m too sensitive for you and you are too careless for me. That I want to be done.

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Presious

Feb 17, 2019 at 5:16pm

Are the moments we let pass by sometimes with a sad realization, yet others we find ourselves completely ignorant to until some life lesson refreshes that few seconds with a clarity only the unfortunate can appreciate. So all the things we can not say are usually the reason something possibly beyond incredible pass us by in a realized or unrealized moment lost to obscurity. So now I do my best to try and recognise these moments. I think I'm putting in around a double bogy. Like I said doing my best, in all fairness a doctorate degree that is non-existent is required. I hope to set up such a university for lovers and non-fighters a like one day. Until then I will continue banging my head off the wall of insanity that is built of the love I feel and have for you. It's real don't sweat it, it's just brand new to me so allow for that all important learning curve and remember this. The brain is a learning computer, it is best served when the information it contains is shared with the heart. Thoughts are just that, not absolutes. It should be a snoop proof system, still being able to read people you know so well is unkind before the actual result a duo process is finished. Just saying.

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Narcissists: Wolves in sheeps'clothing.

Feb 18, 2019 at 11:52am

They don't love you, but they love your love for them. Just wait until they see your attention going elsewhere. They'll bait you, and once they have you, they'll destroy your life, then they'll rinse and repeat, and try to destroy your very soul. Their ego would love it if they manage to get you to kill yourself over them.

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No your wrong we do!!

Feb 18, 2019 at 7:33pm

Oh and also fuck you, but I love you anyway.

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No, I want to be done

Feb 19, 2019 at 9:04am

Because all that is left now is the ache of all the things that will never be. I’m only sorry that to kill the desire I have to kill the friendship too.

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@no...

Feb 19, 2019 at 12:32pm

You should tell them in person or directly.

In my current situation, I thought the love was unconditional on both sides, but maybe you are correct. I wanted to leave, if counselling doesn’t work I still might. That’s what I wanted to tell you and why. You know now that’s the important part. I thought I was done healing, but all those memories got reactived all at once this weekend. Almost landed in the psych ward, but someone one told me my mind is strong. It’s the truth. Adieu till we meet again.

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She is not the type

Feb 21, 2019 at 8:43am

See she is of the sound mind and belief, that she just will ghost your ass or make the whole crazy made stupid thing your fault. Never having to except blame or say she made a mistake. She loves this cause it makes all the hurt and sadness available for the other person. There is your truly Apropos named OP.

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