I miss you so, so much

posted February 20th, 2019 at 9:40 AM

I can't wait until you come back. I've never been more depressed than I have been this winter... I'm the only person in my circle of friends that isn't busy nesting with their partner right now, and I'm feeling very isolated and left out. I know I should focus on living my own life, finding my own joy, and doing my own things -- being alone is okay and should be a healthy thing if you're secure with yourself and have a strong constitution... but you're such a big part of my life that it feels strange, almost foreign to do these things alone right now. It makes me feel needy and like a weakling, but maybe that's just the case. I push on because I have to, but I'm tired of dragging my feet. I just don't know how long I can go before I see you again. xo

13 Comments

So...

Feb 20, 2019 at 5:22pm

Did they tell you that they would be coming back?

Well here's the thing...

Feb 20, 2019 at 6:53pm

I'm not coming back.

Could have been me

Feb 20, 2019 at 7:49pm

But I’m staying strong. I made that decision for a reason, and his actions (or lack thereof) since then have proven that my gut instinct was was right. The unfortunate truth is that if someone genuinely loves you, they will reach out. They will try to fix it. They will risk being hurt because love matters more than pride. So if your person isn’t doing that, you need to move on because they truly don’t want you the way you want them. I know how much it hurts, trust me.

humans aren’t birds.

Feb 20, 2019 at 8:07pm

Your last sentence is incredibly disturbing. It sounds like you are saying you are close to killing yourself. Over a person. Also, nesting? Humans don’t do that.

Hang in there hon

Feb 20, 2019 at 8:52pm

I know these 22 years of abandon haven't been the great escape they were planned as but you know how it is with genius: stubborn determination will have it's reward. Where do broken hearts go? Nowhere. They patiently wait forever knowing in their heart of hearts the way of true love never runs straight or on time...

A

Feb 20, 2019 at 11:41pm

porn addiction is a sad thing.

@ could have been me

Feb 21, 2019 at 2:22pm

If you loved them, you would reach out by the standards of love you hold them at. You're probably currently in a relationship, and you've probably already rejected them a number of times after they've already reached out to you. Why don't you put your money where your mouth is, and deal with your own pride!

Also I was

Feb 21, 2019 at 3:16pm

P.s I was going to talk to you that night or had hoped to. I have seen more than once a message stating that there is no hope for me in here. Well shit I was ready to move that night. I knew as soon as they showed up it was going to be a cause drama between us m, those two that's what the primary mission was. I'm know you think I'm off my but about that just watch and listen. If another guy like me ever show up. Do not let your goofy fake friends out the run on your love. See I grantee when they find if they find it they will not you oush out their shit.

@@could have been me

Feb 21, 2019 at 6:46pm

I DID reach out several times, so your comment doesn’t apply to me. I’ve told them point blank over and over again why I felt that I had to end it, because they didn’t show me that they loved me for ME. It was always me trying in vain to continually meet their ridiculous expectations, while they simply expected to just show up and that was it. So whoever it is you think I’m referring to, it’s not you.