I can not look at love the way it was. I was so stupid, I was not fair and child like. I guess that's why I have been punishing myself. I put my attention in another, one I knew I was never going to be with. I hate being alone but how do you tell someone who nearly killed you for mistakes you made( not intentionally). I do want you and I to speak. I'm just as lost as you and have been ever since I last saw you there and here. Yes! Lets Talk. I have tried reaching you at an old # I have on a picture ;-) anyways I hope my dodging ways have not prevented a conversation. I'm sorry that you are suffering that is not my plan at all, I've wanted quite the contrary for you. I knew and have been reading your thoughts that you've sent out. Lets have that convo and make it face to face. I'm not sure how, it feels like there are other forces at play. I love you and I was a asshole to an end I didn't want or even saw coming. Sorry ilu imu.