I can't help it

I check his social media accounts daily. I can see what he's doing, where and with who. I fell in love with him over 18 years ago when I was just a teenager. Our attempts at being together never seemed to line up because of misunderstandings or relationships. He still sees me from time to time, even though he has a girlfriend, even though I have a boyfriend. I know you'll tell me that I should stop seeing him, forget about him and move on. But I can't. Emotionally, physically, mentally I can't let go. I know you'll tell me how terrible of a person I am for what I'm doing. But I don't have the conscience to stop. I've tried the open relationship idea, but it's not for everyone and that's fair. For now all I can do is keep my head down, exercise, work, eat, sleep, repeat. But I know that if I keep going like this, I will regret it. I already do.

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One thing you can do

Apr 18, 2019 at 7:29pm

is break up with your boyfriend. He deserves better.

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Long ago

Apr 18, 2019 at 11:03pm

Your not a horrible person..
Just in love with someone.
Timing seems to be everything in this world , but
My Granny always said " if you were meant to have sonething you will
and if not, it was'nt meant to be.
Follow your heart, but wisely..
"Many fish in the sea". Granny also said that too. lol

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It's normal

Apr 19, 2019 at 12:17am

Attachment is a way out, the other side of the fence. You're attached to the feelings of the past. It's normal. I approve.

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If you're still not over someone

Apr 19, 2019 at 9:04pm

Then you should remain single until you get over them. It's not fair to the person you're dating. You're just using them as a rebound. How selfish of you.

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Yes you can

Apr 20, 2019 at 12:40am

Once you come to the decision of "I'll either have him, or I will have no one" then things will work better for you.

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