What ya hafta do, and you may wish to write this down, is crush your old exceptions to dust and rebuild. Start over from the ground up

I hate to break this to you, but having talent includes having confidence.

You read like a dude who just took 3 big hits from a bong.

keep going you'll get there in the right timing.

And you're not alone on this

I wish we could meet and our shit together, together! You sound just like me!

You don't want it enough.