I'm not having any fun. I want to let loose somehow, to do something different. I am so inhibited, I don't do half the things I want to because I worry what others think. I've lived my whole life just trying not to bother people, trying to stay out of the way, to not be seen. Which might not be a bad thing in ways but I think I do it to a fault, where I don't really go for what I want or assert myself. I want to do something different, to live a little, to sin, but I don't know where to start.