I have it all

I have everything I want. I'm married, have a good job, have kids, even a home that I built myself. Everything that I planned out, I got. I should be happy, I should be at least satisfied. It looks that way to everyone in my life. I hate my life. I'm a fraud. I'm faking it all. Everything that I thought would make me happy just sucks. I can't be who I am. Nobody would love me unless I stay like this. The one person who I thought got me and loved me for me abandoned me, and I'll never get them back. They hate me and I said sit that made it worse. Even if they did come back, I can't have 'em. I'm stuck in this shitty trap. FML

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Heeey

Aug 16, 2019 at 11:03am

People will love you if your gst just come out to your loved ones, the only one hating themselves for being gay is you, the rest of your family loves you

Me too pretty much.

Aug 16, 2019 at 11:58am

@Heeey: What in the hell r u talking about

Anonymous

Aug 16, 2019 at 1:50pm

politicians are buying votes
can you buy friends?

I pity...

Aug 16, 2019 at 2:17pm

your wife and kids. Their life is a life. You did it to yourself. If you're gay, then get out of the closet now! You should live your life honestly. Let your wife find someone else who wants her. Your kids will eventually understand. You might not have that person back but you'll find someone else, which is better than feeling the way you feel now.

Hugs

Aug 16, 2019 at 3:58pm

You seem self aware of what you have, what others think they see in you, and what you hate about everything.

I don't have answers. Just hugs. I am a single person who has had more married people confess all this stuff to them more times than I can count.

@OP

Aug 16, 2019 at 4:23pm

Everything you want or everything society tells you you should want?

Hm

Aug 16, 2019 at 5:22pm

Why is every jumping to the conclusion this person must be gay. Maybe they had a mistress? Who knows.
Just be honest with yourself and the people around you, they might actually love you for you anyways.

I bloody knew it.

Aug 16, 2019 at 8:28pm

It was the house and the money.
You would rather the your pretend life online and not losing half, then whats in your heart.
Does money always win?
You have made your choice.

@Hm

Aug 16, 2019 at 8:42pm

Maybe because it's better that he's gay. At least, he could excuse his actions on social pressure. Having a mistress makes him a sh*tty person. Why did you get married and choose to have kids in the first place?

Anonymous

Aug 16, 2019 at 9:46pm

I believe in you.

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